If I Could Write About You

If I could I would write about you
I would.
It wouldn't even take me that long
It never does anyway.

If I could I would write about you,
I would write the tears.
I would write how you made me cry
Hot tears of humiliation.
And blinding rage

If I could write about you,
I would write the screaming
Like a crazed monkey you screeched
For no reason at all quite frankly
Other then the fact that you were mad.

If I could write about you,
I would write the confusion you made me feel
Was I angry?
Was I sad?
I never knew with you.

If I could write about you
It would be messy.
Quite like this so called poem
Because you are a messy person
Hard to deal with and hard to explain

So now I wrote about you.
But I have yet to do you justice
Nothing I've ever written about you has
Because no one really knows what it's like
To live with you. To experience you.

C.D

Emotions

Have you ever considered your emotions when it comes to dying. Like do you want to die happy, angry, sad? I mean what's the point of living a happy life if your last emotion is anger or sadness? If you get angry and have a heart attack. That's the saddest thing. The last thing you felt was not joy or love but anger.

 I don't know why but that came to my mind today when I was just talking to myself and letting my mind wander.